This is what God gave me for a friend on Friday afternoon.
I look at what I have and I know that I don't deserve this honour.
Yet, I'm aware it was totally His will and timing on my side so I just went with God.
"Faith is something all of us can have, just a matter of who you place your faith in (: A lot of times, it is about directing your faith from something physical to something spiritual. Everyone has faith and everyone has more than enough chances to make that faith count (: Remember when you said you needed the 'enlightenment' I have? There're an endless number of enlightenments (: I can tell you that just by knowing God exists is the 1st enlightenment so you've got it! This journey is like crossing a bridge. You just need to decide to start crossing a bridge and thereafter, it's about how to keep walking (: There're people who say they're crossing but they're just saying, not moving. That was my problem... I didn't actually accept the invitation and step onto the bridge till early this year though I'd been saying I was on the bridge for 16 plus years. But I learnt that each time you approach this bridge, you're actually ready to cross it but if you feel you're not ready, there's something beautiful: there's only one bridge but somehow you'll keep coming back to that bridge. Opportunities are endless(: You'll never know where's the end of the bridge and whether to keep walking when some planks of the bridge start falling out and that's where your faith comes in (:"
How can that be from me? It's not, it's from God.
I really pray this friend can join Nissi G.A.P. soon!
PROMOS - every J1 student's nightmare!!
I really want to push for good grades, grades that at least allow me to move up to J2 and keep my combination :/
Now that PW is momentarily out of the way, I'm racing against time to prepare.
Probably gonna stay off Blogger till everything's over.
Unless I have something absolutely awesome to share (:
I will give up what means most just so You would mean more.
Father, help me by giving me that 100% faith, I need it more than ever.
Father, help me to understand and bear with it.
I know the time will come.
Just like today's speaker said: she knew the time would come, she just didn't know when.
I pray that till then, You'll keep my heart pure.
Father, my heart was made to worship You.
Take this heart captive, Lord, and make it Yours...
Burn - Cornerstone
Jesus, You are my everything
I am amazed by the love that You've shown
At the cross
All my sins have been washed
I will embrace this love You've given me
To please this heart of Yours
And I fall into You
Empty my all, I'll run to You
Purge away my sins
Make me whole again
Burn within my heart
A passion for Your name
Cleanse me of my faults
Make me pure within
Deep inside my heart
Renew the fire again
Burn me in the fire
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
He is God, totally undeniable (:
Revolve - Desperation Band
I was lost but now I'm found
And my world revolves around You
I was far away and now
My world revolves around You
Jesus, my world without an end
No mind can comprehend
Though I keep trying
Jesus, my faith has found Your love
My hope has found it's trust
My heart will beat the sound
My world revolves around
Though the sky should touch the ground
My world revolves around You
I surrender, You surround
When my world revolves around You
Now my eyes are fixed on You
And I can't look away
Cause all this heart was made to do
Is to offer highest praise
My praise, praise, my praise
Yes, I don't want to look away.
I could choose to give up and let it all be like that.
But it can't, if I want the same for them, I cannot just be a placid spectator.
I have to fan the flames cause that is the responsibility I've been given.
Anyone can condemn me for trying, for standing.
But I know what I'm giving up if I choose to back down and not stand firm.
It ain't worth it, I can stand cause I know who I'm fighting for.
And He's worth fighting for.
This week:
- Talked to Amanda about faith. It was good! She explained some aspects of the Catholic faith to me and well, there's a lot of food for thought there. It's interesting to hear what it's about, how it comes about, why it's so. After sharing, Holy Communion became more sacred to me. I learnt a lot from her(: A Christian and a Catholic, same amazing God.
- Prayed for Vanessa. She was so stressed! Well, we all are. I know it's hard to trust sometimes, but the harder it is, the more imperative it is to trust.
- Attended Nissi G.A.P.'s first wedding! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUEN&VICTOR! HAHA. I will get those photos up here soon! The jingcha ceremony and all! This wedding was impromptu BUT well-coordinated by God LOL, totally unplanned by us. Awesome celebration, thank God(: Totally love my family (: so blessed to have all of you!! was a little stressed but you guys&girls made me so totally happy haha! LET'S BE ON FIRE FOR GOD!
- I love my mum,dad and brother. It didn't work out this time. We'll try again next time. I know how it's like and I want the same for all of you too... It will work out next time, I believe, I trust, I know (:
God, give me the strength to go on.
I pray that what You've given me, You'll bless my family with as well.
God, I pray for my brothers' and sisters' families.
God, I pray those who don't know You will come to know You.
I pray those that haven't acknowledged You will give themselves to You.
I pray that those who are firmly rooted in You will continue to have an evergrowing relationship with You.
God, I thank You for everyone in my life and I pray that Your fire within us won't die out, that Your flames out there will continue to burn for You.
Thank You Lord, for being my God, my Father
Amen.
I was lost but now I'm found
And my world revolves around You
I was far away and now
My world revolves around You
Jesus, my world without an end
No mind can comprehend
Though I keep trying
Jesus, my faith has found Your love
My hope has found it's trust
My heart will beat the sound
My world revolves around
Though the sky should touch the ground
My world revolves around You
I surrender, You surround
When my world revolves around You
Now my eyes are fixed on You
And I can't look away
Cause all this heart was made to do
Is to offer highest praise
My praise, praise, my praise
Yes, I don't want to look away.
I could choose to give up and let it all be like that.
But it can't, if I want the same for them, I cannot just be a placid spectator.
I have to fan the flames cause that is the responsibility I've been given.
Anyone can condemn me for trying, for standing.
But I know what I'm giving up if I choose to back down and not stand firm.
It ain't worth it, I can stand cause I know who I'm fighting for.
And He's worth fighting for.
This week:
- Talked to Amanda about faith. It was good! She explained some aspects of the Catholic faith to me and well, there's a lot of food for thought there. It's interesting to hear what it's about, how it comes about, why it's so. After sharing, Holy Communion became more sacred to me. I learnt a lot from her(: A Christian and a Catholic, same amazing God.
- Prayed for Vanessa. She was so stressed! Well, we all are. I know it's hard to trust sometimes, but the harder it is, the more imperative it is to trust.
- Attended Nissi G.A.P.'s first wedding! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUEN&VICTOR! HAHA. I will get those photos up here soon! The jingcha ceremony and all! This wedding was impromptu BUT well-coordinated by God LOL, totally unplanned by us. Awesome celebration, thank God(: Totally love my family (: so blessed to have all of you!! was a little stressed but you guys&girls made me so totally happy haha! LET'S BE ON FIRE FOR GOD!
- I love my mum,dad and brother. It didn't work out this time. We'll try again next time. I know how it's like and I want the same for all of you too... It will work out next time, I believe, I trust, I know (:
God, give me the strength to go on.
I pray that what You've given me, You'll bless my family with as well.
God, I pray for my brothers' and sisters' families.
God, I pray those who don't know You will come to know You.
I pray those that haven't acknowledged You will give themselves to You.
I pray that those who are firmly rooted in You will continue to have an evergrowing relationship with You.
God, I thank You for everyone in my life and I pray that Your fire within us won't die out, that Your flames out there will continue to burn for You.
Thank You Lord, for being my God, my Father
Amen.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Every Little Thing We Do
Rome was not built in a day. Each and every part of Rome had to be built from scratch, from bricks and stone. Do not belittle these bricks and stones. All these small parts build up into something big. Same thing with our relationship with God. Small things matter and God does see the little details we put in. Whatever we do, so long as it is for Him, it is all pleasing in His sight! That is how great He is...
Doesn't everyone start out small? I find that a lot of us start out so eager to please God that even in the small things, we try our very best to seek His favour. That is being on fire for God. It is not about doing incredibly great things for God all the time. It is good to go back and look at how you've been handling the details, the "minor" not-so-great things.
Something small and seemingly insignificant like SF and Bible Reading matters to God. SF is service feedback, something new to me at first. Had no idea what was really the reason for having it but God revealed last night the importance of SF. SF may seem like a chore, but it is a privilege. You share what God spoke to you and sharing goes such a long way. You become more appreciative of what God is doing for you and simultaneously, you encourage others. It is like the Marianne Williamson quote: you give others permission to shine when you shine. This is a small area to shine in but shouldn't we seize every opportunity to shine for God? I mean, if He means that much to us, we would seize every opportunity right?
Again, I don't really want to say this because it's like kind of a downer but I think not saying will be worse :/ I think attitudes need to change towards these "small" things. We overlook their importance and indirectly diminish how God can communicate to us through these things. Attitudes are contagious. Nobody seems to care therefore nobody does it unless reminded and pushed. Sometimes, it is against our will but subconsciously, we do succumb to it cos we're usually totally unaware.
A question popped into my head last night when I got the usual message reminding the cell to send SF. I surprised myself by actually thinking "oh, it's the USUAL message." Why is it part of the routine? Why do we have to be reminded? We shouldn't have to be. If it meant something to us, we would do it. Precisely because its importance has been diminished in minds and therefore, it is cast aside until Peijun faithfully reminds us to send it in. Yes, humans need to be reminded from time to time but not all the time. I think it is a sign that things need to change. Perhaps change is already beginning. If it means a lot to us, we will make an effort to remember.
If I recall correctly, it was explained to me that we were given "thinking time" instead of having to spend time during cellgroup to do SF. I fully agree that we need "thinking time" but that too is a privilege. There is no use just getting it over and done with but this privilege is something we cannot take for granted.
Change is definitely happening but is it happening at the rate it can and should be? It is like studying. With God, the poor student does well and the good student does better. Maybe people just like the way things are and see no need to change? Or perhaps they see the need to change but they don't change because they believe that's the way things are and it's just like that and cannot be changed? Cellgroup culture? Someone told me to stop believing that things are just like that and will stay like that. God said that too, that's why we started praying against stagnancy. Change begins with us. Cultures can change and I believe that we can do better, really.
We start small because without the small pieces, there would be no big picture at all. We are God's children. If this is our attitude towards small things, when can we ever progress to do great things for God? Our relationship with God has its levels. We will always be at the same level if we keep taking the same thing God gives us and do a half-baked job. Small things do produce result over time if we put in effort.
Being on fire for God is doing everything to the best of your ability for Him.
We are the deciding factor in this because God has given each of us a choice!
What is beyond us? Think about that!
You know, God says NOTHING is beyond us because He is with us.
Nothing is beyond us, let's keep pushing for the plan we know He has for us!
God, You know my prayer.
You stirred something in me, told me what to say here.
You caused a disturbance in me, telling me to be appreciative and thankful for change but also to not start to fall back to complacency.
God, it is no use being on fire for You when we are blind to our weaknesses.
I pray that You open our eyes to see more and to really be on fire for You.
Not for just a moment and allow it to flicker away but Lord, we want it to burn strong every minute.
God I pray for hunger.
I pray we will not be satisfied with where we are as a cellgroup.
I pray we take it to the next level with You.
I pray that we push for change that is for our own good.
God we do not want to wait till it is too late.
We want to treasure what we have right here and now.
I pray that we will really truly work towards being the family that You have given us the opportunity to be.
God I thank You for Nissi G.A.P. and I know that with Your help, we will grow so much more.
Thank You for letting me see!
Thank You also for letting me know that I am Yours forever, I have Your seal.
I thank You for being my God!
Doesn't everyone start out small? I find that a lot of us start out so eager to please God that even in the small things, we try our very best to seek His favour. That is being on fire for God. It is not about doing incredibly great things for God all the time. It is good to go back and look at how you've been handling the details, the "minor" not-so-great things.
Something small and seemingly insignificant like SF and Bible Reading matters to God. SF is service feedback, something new to me at first. Had no idea what was really the reason for having it but God revealed last night the importance of SF. SF may seem like a chore, but it is a privilege. You share what God spoke to you and sharing goes such a long way. You become more appreciative of what God is doing for you and simultaneously, you encourage others. It is like the Marianne Williamson quote: you give others permission to shine when you shine. This is a small area to shine in but shouldn't we seize every opportunity to shine for God? I mean, if He means that much to us, we would seize every opportunity right?
Again, I don't really want to say this because it's like kind of a downer but I think not saying will be worse :/ I think attitudes need to change towards these "small" things. We overlook their importance and indirectly diminish how God can communicate to us through these things. Attitudes are contagious. Nobody seems to care therefore nobody does it unless reminded and pushed. Sometimes, it is against our will but subconsciously, we do succumb to it cos we're usually totally unaware.
A question popped into my head last night when I got the usual message reminding the cell to send SF. I surprised myself by actually thinking "oh, it's the USUAL message." Why is it part of the routine? Why do we have to be reminded? We shouldn't have to be. If it meant something to us, we would do it. Precisely because its importance has been diminished in minds and therefore, it is cast aside until Peijun faithfully reminds us to send it in. Yes, humans need to be reminded from time to time but not all the time. I think it is a sign that things need to change. Perhaps change is already beginning. If it means a lot to us, we will make an effort to remember.
If I recall correctly, it was explained to me that we were given "thinking time" instead of having to spend time during cellgroup to do SF. I fully agree that we need "thinking time" but that too is a privilege. There is no use just getting it over and done with but this privilege is something we cannot take for granted.
Change is definitely happening but is it happening at the rate it can and should be? It is like studying. With God, the poor student does well and the good student does better. Maybe people just like the way things are and see no need to change? Or perhaps they see the need to change but they don't change because they believe that's the way things are and it's just like that and cannot be changed? Cellgroup culture? Someone told me to stop believing that things are just like that and will stay like that. God said that too, that's why we started praying against stagnancy. Change begins with us. Cultures can change and I believe that we can do better, really.
We start small because without the small pieces, there would be no big picture at all. We are God's children. If this is our attitude towards small things, when can we ever progress to do great things for God? Our relationship with God has its levels. We will always be at the same level if we keep taking the same thing God gives us and do a half-baked job. Small things do produce result over time if we put in effort.
Being on fire for God is doing everything to the best of your ability for Him.
We are the deciding factor in this because God has given each of us a choice!
What is beyond us? Think about that!
You know, God says NOTHING is beyond us because He is with us.
Nothing is beyond us, let's keep pushing for the plan we know He has for us!
God, You know my prayer.
You stirred something in me, told me what to say here.
You caused a disturbance in me, telling me to be appreciative and thankful for change but also to not start to fall back to complacency.
God, it is no use being on fire for You when we are blind to our weaknesses.
I pray that You open our eyes to see more and to really be on fire for You.
Not for just a moment and allow it to flicker away but Lord, we want it to burn strong every minute.
God I pray for hunger.
I pray we will not be satisfied with where we are as a cellgroup.
I pray we take it to the next level with You.
I pray that we push for change that is for our own good.
God we do not want to wait till it is too late.
We want to treasure what we have right here and now.
I pray that we will really truly work towards being the family that You have given us the opportunity to be.
God I thank You for Nissi G.A.P. and I know that with Your help, we will grow so much more.
Thank You for letting me see!
Thank You also for letting me know that I am Yours forever, I have Your seal.
I thank You for being my God!
here we go
To Be Your Child
I don't worry what will come next
What the world throws at me now
You are above the weight of the world
You broke the yoke from my shoulders
I know how it feels all over again
To stand a child of Yours everyday
To hear Your voice through the pain
To be held in Your arms today
Lord each day will be Your day
I will light Your fire through the rain
I don't worry what is written in my book
What happens on every new page
I know with every step I take
I still have Your promise to claim
I know how it feels all over again
To stand a child of Yours everyday
To hear Your voice through the pain
To be held in Your arms today
Lord each day will be Your day
I will light Your fire through the rain
Your promise I remember
You will be here forever
There is something
To live for every moment
It is so good to be Your child
The Fire
Feeling Your power rise up
From the depths of my soul
To hear Your voice call out
I rise up
Lord stir it up in my soul
Seeing Your light spread out
As far as my eyes can go
To feel Your reviving touch
I pray hard
My passion will be You
Cos You are worthy
Of all the praise and glory
Let the fire burn hotter
Let the fire burn higher
Let the fire burn deeper, stronger
Lord we're burning up for You
Let the fire spread further
Let the fire grow greater
Let the fire burn deeper, stronger
Lord we're on fire for You
Nothing will stop me now
Passion of fire burning within
My Spirit is ignited
Nothing will quash this flame
We are burning up for You
We are all on fire for You
We are all for You
I don't worry what will come next
What the world throws at me now
You are above the weight of the world
You broke the yoke from my shoulders
I know how it feels all over again
To stand a child of Yours everyday
To hear Your voice through the pain
To be held in Your arms today
Lord each day will be Your day
I will light Your fire through the rain
I don't worry what is written in my book
What happens on every new page
I know with every step I take
I still have Your promise to claim
I know how it feels all over again
To stand a child of Yours everyday
To hear Your voice through the pain
To be held in Your arms today
Lord each day will be Your day
I will light Your fire through the rain
Your promise I remember
You will be here forever
There is something
To live for every moment
It is so good to be Your child
The Fire
Feeling Your power rise up
From the depths of my soul
To hear Your voice call out
I rise up
Lord stir it up in my soul
Seeing Your light spread out
As far as my eyes can go
To feel Your reviving touch
I pray hard
My passion will be You
Cos You are worthy
Of all the praise and glory
Let the fire burn hotter
Let the fire burn higher
Let the fire burn deeper, stronger
Lord we're burning up for You
Let the fire spread further
Let the fire grow greater
Let the fire burn deeper, stronger
Lord we're on fire for You
Nothing will stop me now
Passion of fire burning within
My Spirit is ignited
Nothing will quash this flame
We are burning up for You
We are all on fire for You
We are all for You
Sunday, September 13, 2009
change
God's given me an awesome week (:
I can't say I wasn't scared.
That'd be a lie.
What I can say is that I had His peace.
That's the only reason why I didn't totally freak out.
I was relatively calm...because He was there.
It is an experience I won't forget.
Not that the whole thing was traumatic for me.
But I'll remember it because He was there with me all along.
I don't need to see it, I felt it.
Amidst the noise echoing around me, I felt His presence.
Thank You, You answered my prayers.
I was kind of shocked to hear what you said.
I somehow expected it yet somehow it threw me offguard.
Now I know why your messages were so weird hahah.
I'm thankful to have you, my dear brother(:
And I thank God so much for you.
I think you've changed me more than you know.
You don't say much like most teenage guys but you show your care and I miss that.
Seems like we hardly ever talk.
We've each got our own stuff and even though you're busy, you've still shown so much concern.
Thanks, you're so sweet!
Yay, I love my sisters too(: you girls are awesome!
Thankyou so much for your prayers and encouragement, totally feel God's love through you girls!
Lol, being the youngest has its advantages, people.
When you have incredible people who dote on you!
And when all 4 have experience as older sisters haha.
Example: Szern holding my hand and crossing the road.
Absolutely no idea why though.
My friend ever said that I go to church to get doted on but that is SO not true.
I mean, yeah sure I get doted on (I take care of them too kay!) but that's not the point.
I remember when Bel first brought me to COSBT that I had no idea what was a cellgroup.
I didn't really wanna go, I vaguely remember protesting but Bel just gave me her AUNT look so I went.
But I think that that was something that played an essential role in my growth.
I mean Glory was cool for what it was (and still is) as a church.
But the style is different.
There you have growth but it is very individualistic.
From my point of view.
I've been at Glory for a little less than 16 years.
Not exactly 16 cos I found out recently that I actually went to another church when I was very very young!
Anyways, it's been about knowledge.
It was hard to find youth with passion.
For years, church was about just going for me, nothing more than that.
I guess Glory's style is fine, there are people growing.
But that was just not the place for me.
I'm very thankful though for the knowledge from Glory.
Yes, I did pay attention to the parts I found interesting and I still have the Bible Study notes from last time.
I should read through those more often...
Anyway, then when I met people on fire for God, it was hard not to stay.
So I just stayed (:
I think that it's the best decision ever and I have to thank God for the option, the perseverance to follow through with my decision and the people who've been so supportive the whole way.
Nissi G.A.P. is awesome and we're gonna be on fire for God together!
Yes, I agree that I've seen a lot of change, inside and outside.
And I know that there are lots more to come!
I'm so blessed!
Those who've known me for awhile would see the change!
I think I'm more talkative now :x
Well, I used to talk more crap than sense but it's more even now :P
I'm very open to the few close to me and I think I'm actually happier, more relaxed.
Can rmb those times I was so stressed!
Hahah so much better now.
Thank God for change and people who helped start the change.
Small changes can change the big picture (:
It did for me.
It's hard to find chemistry that 13 other people share and people do ask why it is so.
Hahah, I guess it's a family thing (:
A family with God as the authority will go far and that's the plan :D
God, thank You for the love shown by You through various important people in my life.
Thank You for changes in cellgroup.
Thank You for setting us on fire for You.
God I thank You for the people in my life who've helped to start the change in me and are still encouraging me through.
I pray that the bonds between all of us will be stronger than ever as we make You the foundation of this family.
God my prayer is still the same for her.
I pray she will not let up, I pray that You stir it up in her family.
God let her life speak Your word, let her be the one to spark change in her family.
I pray that day by day, things will start to change for her family as it is slowly changing for mine.
God let that life-changing experience be felt by them as well!
I want to thank You for everything You've given me: big or small, "bad" or great, I know You're here.
Thank You for being my God!
I can't say I wasn't scared.
That'd be a lie.
What I can say is that I had His peace.
That's the only reason why I didn't totally freak out.
I was relatively calm...because He was there.
It is an experience I won't forget.
Not that the whole thing was traumatic for me.
But I'll remember it because He was there with me all along.
I don't need to see it, I felt it.
Amidst the noise echoing around me, I felt His presence.
Thank You, You answered my prayers.
I was kind of shocked to hear what you said.
I somehow expected it yet somehow it threw me offguard.
Now I know why your messages were so weird hahah.
I'm thankful to have you, my dear brother(:
And I thank God so much for you.
I think you've changed me more than you know.
You don't say much like most teenage guys but you show your care and I miss that.
Seems like we hardly ever talk.
We've each got our own stuff and even though you're busy, you've still shown so much concern.
Thanks, you're so sweet!
Yay, I love my sisters too(: you girls are awesome!
Thankyou so much for your prayers and encouragement, totally feel God's love through you girls!
Lol, being the youngest has its advantages, people.
When you have incredible people who dote on you!
And when all 4 have experience as older sisters haha.
Example: Szern holding my hand and crossing the road.
Absolutely no idea why though.
My friend ever said that I go to church to get doted on but that is SO not true.
I mean, yeah sure I get doted on (I take care of them too kay!) but that's not the point.
I remember when Bel first brought me to COSBT that I had no idea what was a cellgroup.
I didn't really wanna go, I vaguely remember protesting but Bel just gave me her AUNT look so I went.
But I think that that was something that played an essential role in my growth.
I mean Glory was cool for what it was (and still is) as a church.
But the style is different.
There you have growth but it is very individualistic.
From my point of view.
I've been at Glory for a little less than 16 years.
Not exactly 16 cos I found out recently that I actually went to another church when I was very very young!
Anyways, it's been about knowledge.
It was hard to find youth with passion.
For years, church was about just going for me, nothing more than that.
I guess Glory's style is fine, there are people growing.
But that was just not the place for me.
I'm very thankful though for the knowledge from Glory.
Yes, I did pay attention to the parts I found interesting and I still have the Bible Study notes from last time.
I should read through those more often...
Anyway, then when I met people on fire for God, it was hard not to stay.
So I just stayed (:
I think that it's the best decision ever and I have to thank God for the option, the perseverance to follow through with my decision and the people who've been so supportive the whole way.
Nissi G.A.P. is awesome and we're gonna be on fire for God together!
Yes, I agree that I've seen a lot of change, inside and outside.
And I know that there are lots more to come!
I'm so blessed!
Those who've known me for awhile would see the change!
I think I'm more talkative now :x
Well, I used to talk more crap than sense but it's more even now :P
I'm very open to the few close to me and I think I'm actually happier, more relaxed.
Can rmb those times I was so stressed!
Hahah so much better now.
Thank God for change and people who helped start the change.
Small changes can change the big picture (:
It did for me.
It's hard to find chemistry that 13 other people share and people do ask why it is so.
Hahah, I guess it's a family thing (:
A family with God as the authority will go far and that's the plan :D
God, thank You for the love shown by You through various important people in my life.
Thank You for changes in cellgroup.
Thank You for setting us on fire for You.
God I thank You for the people in my life who've helped to start the change in me and are still encouraging me through.
I pray that the bonds between all of us will be stronger than ever as we make You the foundation of this family.
God my prayer is still the same for her.
I pray she will not let up, I pray that You stir it up in her family.
God let her life speak Your word, let her be the one to spark change in her family.
I pray that day by day, things will start to change for her family as it is slowly changing for mine.
God let that life-changing experience be felt by them as well!
I want to thank You for everything You've given me: big or small, "bad" or great, I know You're here.
Thank You for being my God!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Worlds Apart - Jars Of Clay
Worlds Apart - Jars Of Clay
I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all adds up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
To give and die
To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
More deeply than the oceans,more abundant than the tears
Of a world embracing every heartache
Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees
All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me
Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart
I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
And wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now
I owe you more each passing hour
The battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
And wash the feet and cleanse my pride
Take the selfish, take the weak
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
The sin-soaked heart and make it yours
Take my world all apart
Take it now, take it now
And serve the ones that I despise
Speak the words I can't deny
Watch the world I used to love
Fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
So wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remain
So steal my heart and take the pain
Take the selfish, take the weak
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
Take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
Take my world apart
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
break it down (:
2 Corinthians 12: 7-10
>>To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Amen! To keep us from sliding, God allows us to have weaknesses. But this is what saves us. More about this later.
Our weaknesses make us in need for God to fill up the missing bits. Not that we have done anything to deserve it. That's why it's called grace because it's something we didn't deserve but got anyway, on top of mercy.
When you realize that God will take care of it, you're not afraid to admit your shortcomings because you know that the exposure will cause you to rely on God and others around you will realize that it was not you but God.
Delighting in the training isn't easy but because to meet the requirements of the training, you need God so you lean on Him more. You get closer to Him so you delight in challenges because you know it is an opportunity to grow more in Him. And through it all, you grow stronger in Him.
Challenges do not equal to defeat, challenges equal to growth.
Weaknesses can come in so many different forms. For me, it was the injury. Not that the injury itself completely hampered me in any way but it became my weak point that Satan's messenger NEGATIVITY would attack on. But now that I have new perspective on this, I realize that it saved me really. If I had not had this injury restricting my mobility in a sense, 2 things could have happened.
#1: I could have become more rebellious, more determined to stay out late.
>Because I could no longer stay out late due to the constant pain, I was forced to stay home or go home early. Who knows how I would've turned out. God knew. I believe that is why He restrained me, He knew I would not be able to handle it then. I might've told Him I was but He knew me better. He loved me too much to take chances.
#2: I could have hurt myself worse than I already have.
>This thing has slowed me down a lot and it's really been for the better. Now I know my limits, meaning that I know how far to push at the right time. That's important because He knows when I'm ready and when I'm not. I also started to rely more on His Spirit and I'm beginning to see change. Change that will spread (:
Surrender - PlanetShakers
Verse 1:
All that I am, is Yours
All that I have, is Yours
I give You my heart and soul
Lord I’m Yours
Verse 2:
Lord every day, is Yours
Lord every breath, is Yours
I’m giving my life to You
Lord I’m Yours
Pre-chorus:
You alone are worthy of all praise
You alone are worthy of all praise
Chorus:
I surrender all to You
I surrender all to You
I am nothing without You
Jesus Christ, take my life
It’s all for You
I will give up what means most just so He would mean more
>>To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Amen! To keep us from sliding, God allows us to have weaknesses. But this is what saves us. More about this later.
Our weaknesses make us in need for God to fill up the missing bits. Not that we have done anything to deserve it. That's why it's called grace because it's something we didn't deserve but got anyway, on top of mercy.
When you realize that God will take care of it, you're not afraid to admit your shortcomings because you know that the exposure will cause you to rely on God and others around you will realize that it was not you but God.
Delighting in the training isn't easy but because to meet the requirements of the training, you need God so you lean on Him more. You get closer to Him so you delight in challenges because you know it is an opportunity to grow more in Him. And through it all, you grow stronger in Him.
Challenges do not equal to defeat, challenges equal to growth.
Weaknesses can come in so many different forms. For me, it was the injury. Not that the injury itself completely hampered me in any way but it became my weak point that Satan's messenger NEGATIVITY would attack on. But now that I have new perspective on this, I realize that it saved me really. If I had not had this injury restricting my mobility in a sense, 2 things could have happened.
#1: I could have become more rebellious, more determined to stay out late.
>Because I could no longer stay out late due to the constant pain, I was forced to stay home or go home early. Who knows how I would've turned out. God knew. I believe that is why He restrained me, He knew I would not be able to handle it then. I might've told Him I was but He knew me better. He loved me too much to take chances.
#2: I could have hurt myself worse than I already have.
>This thing has slowed me down a lot and it's really been for the better. Now I know my limits, meaning that I know how far to push at the right time. That's important because He knows when I'm ready and when I'm not. I also started to rely more on His Spirit and I'm beginning to see change. Change that will spread (:
Surrender - PlanetShakers
Verse 1:
All that I am, is Yours
All that I have, is Yours
I give You my heart and soul
Lord I’m Yours
Verse 2:
Lord every day, is Yours
Lord every breath, is Yours
I’m giving my life to You
Lord I’m Yours
Pre-chorus:
You alone are worthy of all praise
You alone are worthy of all praise
Chorus:
I surrender all to You
I surrender all to You
I am nothing without You
Jesus Christ, take my life
It’s all for You
I will give up what means most just so He would mean more
Sunday, September 6, 2009
God said YES, who are you to say no?
THANK YOU GOD FOR SETTING ME ON FIRE AGAIN.
I cannot express how excited I am right now.
God showed me the amazing plan He has for me!
See, in November, I will be going overseas to the Philippines on OCIP with my class.
I was wondering why God didn't make it such that I could go for mission trips.
I was pretty disappointed because for the first time in my life, I felt that I was ready to go.
I asked God why.
He responded and I cannot help but practically SHOUT my praise for Him.
When people go on mission trips, they face language barriers, barriers placed by governments and the barrier that people have no background knowledge of God.
But on this mission trip, God has lowered the barriers for me!!
We are going to a Christian Brothers' School I think.
So they have a Christian education - background knowledge of God is there.
In a Christian school - free to evangelise, if only you are bold.
I think there's even going to be an interpreter so language barriers lowered.
HOW AMAZING IS THAT.
THANK GOD, SERIOUSLY, THANK GOD.
I was really very excited because the more I thought about the possibility, the more passionate I felt for God.
I was pretty ecstatic and when I got home, my mum saw how happy I looked and she asked me to share why I was so happy.
Somehow, God gave me the courage to share that He spoke and to share my experience of being on fire.
Then....my mum shared HER experience!
And she said she was happy for me and encouraged me to keep going!
I tell you, the high is still here in me, I'm really just so excited!
Then I told my dad that I spoke to my mum and something prompted me to tell him what I wanted for my family.
That I wanted this same experience, this burning up for God to be theirs as well.
My dad encouraged me to pray for them!
I was really going WOW.
Then I went online and spoke to 2 friends and shared with them.
One of them, a non-Christian, asked me to pray for her!
I was so happy and just really thankful that God allowed me to speak to her!
Even now, I feel the strong passion coming up, stronger than when I first stepped into church!
I've really felt God's presence, really truly definitely!!!
And Saturday's sermon was really very defining for me.
I have this habit of brushing aside the importance of prayer even as I tell friends how important prayer is.
But sermon was so good, it shook me awake.
Prayer is totally important and it is a PRIVILEGE.
I'm so thankful that i can have direct access to God!!!
God, You are amazing, so truly wonderful.
Grace and mercy are words I have taken for granted.
Thank you Peijun, God spoke to me through you!
MERCY - NOT RECEIVING SOMETHING YOU SHOULD HAVE RECEIVED
GRACE - RECEIVING SOMETHING YOU DO NOT DESERVE
It totally woke me up, it's time I showed reverance for God.
It is time to get serious about everything.
I forgot to say earlier: I was in pain through out the sharing period, the whole time.
God told me I had a choice: to do His will no matter what and to just succumb.
He asked if I was going to give up.
My body said GIVE UP, IT HURTS.
My mind said ITS NOT WORTH IT, THERE'LL BE OTHER CHANCES, THINK LOGICALLY
But the Holy Spirit said KEEP GOING.
I pushed, not knowing what to really expect.
AND GOD SAID YES.
When everyone else says NO, God says YES
When everything else tells you it is not possible, God says YES
When you are willing and your heart wants to do it for Him, God says YES
I think I've been trusting my body too much, to the extent that I allow it to control how far I can go
NOT ANYMORE.
I trust God.
YES YES AND YES
God, You are amazing, You are so faithful!
God, You've been hearing my prayers all along.
I've been asking You to heal me.
You've shown me that for You to do Your work, I have to do my part too.
I asked You to help me to trust.
You asked me to let go.
I asked you what to let go of.
You told me to let go of idols.
I told You there were no idols.
But You showed me that my idol was fear.
Thank You Lord, You are truly my source of strength.
I prayed that should my family be ready one day, I want to be ready too
You told me that the time is NOW.
I asked You to give me opportunities, You showed me the open door.
I told You that I wasn't ready to do anything.
That I was too small
You told me it's all about training
That anything great starts small
That anybody great has gone through training
That's what makes the great, great - they have triumphed over defeat with You
You said I would be victorious and true to Your word, I was.
You've kept your promise, thank You
I know that You've set me on fire
Now You're telling me to spread Your fire.
To those who say NO, You're telling me what to answer back: YES YES AND YES
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.
You are truly everything I need!
God, I pray that as she has encouraged me that I can encourage her too!
I pray so hard for her family because I know God that just as my family is slowly turning around, hers will as well
My prayer is that she will not give up
My promise is that I would be praying every night for her family
I know You can turn things around because I have seen the beginnings of a revival in my family.
I know it is possible, I know You are going to do something amazing in her family.
God, I know that You will honour her, Your faithful servant
God I pray that she will keep pushing and that You give her strength to push, as You've given me.
Just like me, she wants the same experience she's had for her family.
God I pray that we thank You and continue to pray even as there doesn't seem to be result
Because we trust that if something's not happening on the outside, something is happening on the inside!
God, we pray in faith for revival, for You to cause something to stir in them!
God, I pray that through me and through Nissi GAP, this fire will spread!
God, I thank You for Nissi GAP, that we have the opportunity to grow tgt as a family!
God, there is a reason for us being together, we wanna live out our purpose!
The Desert Song - Hillsong
Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides
Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames
Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
Verse 3:
This is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow
I love this song, could just keep singing it over and over again!
Yes, victorious living for all of us, that is a promise we can claim!
We are on our way to REAL trust (:
I cannot express how excited I am right now.
God showed me the amazing plan He has for me!
See, in November, I will be going overseas to the Philippines on OCIP with my class.
I was wondering why God didn't make it such that I could go for mission trips.
I was pretty disappointed because for the first time in my life, I felt that I was ready to go.
I asked God why.
He responded and I cannot help but practically SHOUT my praise for Him.
When people go on mission trips, they face language barriers, barriers placed by governments and the barrier that people have no background knowledge of God.
But on this mission trip, God has lowered the barriers for me!!
We are going to a Christian Brothers' School I think.
So they have a Christian education - background knowledge of God is there.
In a Christian school - free to evangelise, if only you are bold.
I think there's even going to be an interpreter so language barriers lowered.
HOW AMAZING IS THAT.
THANK GOD, SERIOUSLY, THANK GOD.
I was really very excited because the more I thought about the possibility, the more passionate I felt for God.
I was pretty ecstatic and when I got home, my mum saw how happy I looked and she asked me to share why I was so happy.
Somehow, God gave me the courage to share that He spoke and to share my experience of being on fire.
Then....my mum shared HER experience!
And she said she was happy for me and encouraged me to keep going!
I tell you, the high is still here in me, I'm really just so excited!
Then I told my dad that I spoke to my mum and something prompted me to tell him what I wanted for my family.
That I wanted this same experience, this burning up for God to be theirs as well.
My dad encouraged me to pray for them!
I was really going WOW.
Then I went online and spoke to 2 friends and shared with them.
One of them, a non-Christian, asked me to pray for her!
I was so happy and just really thankful that God allowed me to speak to her!
Even now, I feel the strong passion coming up, stronger than when I first stepped into church!
I've really felt God's presence, really truly definitely!!!
And Saturday's sermon was really very defining for me.
I have this habit of brushing aside the importance of prayer even as I tell friends how important prayer is.
But sermon was so good, it shook me awake.
Prayer is totally important and it is a PRIVILEGE.
I'm so thankful that i can have direct access to God!!!
God, You are amazing, so truly wonderful.
Grace and mercy are words I have taken for granted.
Thank you Peijun, God spoke to me through you!
MERCY - NOT RECEIVING SOMETHING YOU SHOULD HAVE RECEIVED
GRACE - RECEIVING SOMETHING YOU DO NOT DESERVE
It totally woke me up, it's time I showed reverance for God.
It is time to get serious about everything.
I forgot to say earlier: I was in pain through out the sharing period, the whole time.
God told me I had a choice: to do His will no matter what and to just succumb.
He asked if I was going to give up.
My body said GIVE UP, IT HURTS.
My mind said ITS NOT WORTH IT, THERE'LL BE OTHER CHANCES, THINK LOGICALLY
But the Holy Spirit said KEEP GOING.
I pushed, not knowing what to really expect.
AND GOD SAID YES.
When everyone else says NO, God says YES
When everything else tells you it is not possible, God says YES
When you are willing and your heart wants to do it for Him, God says YES
I think I've been trusting my body too much, to the extent that I allow it to control how far I can go
NOT ANYMORE.
I trust God.
YES YES AND YES
God, You are amazing, You are so faithful!
God, You've been hearing my prayers all along.
I've been asking You to heal me.
You've shown me that for You to do Your work, I have to do my part too.
I asked You to help me to trust.
You asked me to let go.
I asked you what to let go of.
You told me to let go of idols.
I told You there were no idols.
But You showed me that my idol was fear.
Thank You Lord, You are truly my source of strength.
I prayed that should my family be ready one day, I want to be ready too
You told me that the time is NOW.
I asked You to give me opportunities, You showed me the open door.
I told You that I wasn't ready to do anything.
That I was too small
You told me it's all about training
That anything great starts small
That anybody great has gone through training
That's what makes the great, great - they have triumphed over defeat with You
You said I would be victorious and true to Your word, I was.
You've kept your promise, thank You
I know that You've set me on fire
Now You're telling me to spread Your fire.
To those who say NO, You're telling me what to answer back: YES YES AND YES
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.
You are truly everything I need!
God, I pray that as she has encouraged me that I can encourage her too!
I pray so hard for her family because I know God that just as my family is slowly turning around, hers will as well
My prayer is that she will not give up
My promise is that I would be praying every night for her family
I know You can turn things around because I have seen the beginnings of a revival in my family.
I know it is possible, I know You are going to do something amazing in her family.
God, I know that You will honour her, Your faithful servant
God I pray that she will keep pushing and that You give her strength to push, as You've given me.
Just like me, she wants the same experience she's had for her family.
God I pray that we thank You and continue to pray even as there doesn't seem to be result
Because we trust that if something's not happening on the outside, something is happening on the inside!
God, we pray in faith for revival, for You to cause something to stir in them!
God, I pray that through me and through Nissi GAP, this fire will spread!
God, I thank You for Nissi GAP, that we have the opportunity to grow tgt as a family!
God, there is a reason for us being together, we wanna live out our purpose!
The Desert Song - Hillsong
Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides
Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames
Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
Verse 3:
This is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow
I love this song, could just keep singing it over and over again!
Yes, victorious living for all of us, that is a promise we can claim!
We are on our way to REAL trust (:
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