randoms

i have too many random thoughts i just gotta put down!



1. PW IS OFFICIALLY OVER. no more late/sleepless nights trying to get something together. no more having to deal with hopeless excuses. no more having to type and type and hope that what i'm producing makes sense. no more drafts. YESSS. but this journey in the desert world of project work didn't go un-blessed. in fact, i think i'm incredibly blessed, just that now, it's a load off my mind and i can do stuff i've been putting off for so long. i'm blessed because all i went through, the sleepless nights and hours in front of the computer paid off. i'm blessed because the whole experience taught me to stand on my own feet. i learned to count on God instead of my strength. i can look back and say i did the best i could, at the end of the day, that's what really counts.

2. i now get to do stuff i wanna do! not so much of hanging out but more of getting back to things i've put aside for some time in view of promos and chinese and pw. more of doing things that mean alot to me, so that at least i can say i made this year count. to set the record straight, i maintain that this year has been awesome. no matter what has happened. it will always be memorable and special in its own way. for sure, i'll remember this year. i've had my fair share of mess-ups and falls but i guess if there's one thing i've learnt is that nothing should hold me back from having that intimate relationship with God, that it's something i cannot compromise for anything else in the world (:

3. i have an awesome 13 person family (: you girls and guys are awesome, like seriously. i'm really blessed and i think God has shown me that more and more over the months! it's a privilege i have to grow with an amazing group of people and it's just so great to have you all in my life (:

4. the past is past, the present is passing. what matters is the future that has yet to pass and i know that any challenge that comes our way will crumble cause we have the greatest of the greatest standing for us. friends, whoever mocks and scorns and tries to tear us down, we'll stand firm. they can TRY but they'll never make it!
[2 Corinthians 10:5 - We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ
they may be the best at what they do: thrashing our belief. we are from the opposing camp. doesn't matter what they can do because just by being at the other end, we will win cause God is with us (: ]

5. vanessa's coming to church!! i'm so proud of her (: she told me twice today that she wanted to pray to God. imagine my momentary speechlessness. i'm really glad for her, we seem to have talked about this for ages (months actually)! this is His plan coming into action! i wanted to give up because it's been long. as you can tell, i'm not one with much patience though i know that it'll pay off. but i'm so glad i waited! this makes it worth the wait! when this happened, i thought of all the times God called me but i refused to respond. i thought about how long He waited. you could say it was 16 years and 10 months! that's how great and patient He is, how much He loves His children. you know, i wouldn't have blamed Him for giving me nothing when i decided to come back. i know i deserve none of what i have now. i think of the prodigal son, and how his father ran to him and treated him better than before. every time i think of the prodigal son, i think that that's me, in a sense maybe worse. this guy grew up loved and had everything he could ever want. i grew up exposed to His love, in a church-going family, i've gone to sunday school ever since i can remember. that guy decided to turn. i decided i'd had enough of church. he got himself in trouble. i became somebody i wasn't. that guy finally realized he was wrong and went back, willing to be a servant and his father accepted him and gave him all he needed. i went back to the church i'd grown up in. but i didn't stay, i turned again. that's like that guy leaving twice. when i eventually went to the place i am now, i couldn't believe how foreign i felt at first. i'd grown up going to church and suddenly, i'm foreign to it. i never really realized why i'd felt foreign. all i wanted was to be able to feel Him and i did. but of course, God gave me the answer to my unasked question.

CHURCH IS NOT A PLACE, BUILDING OR STRUCTURE. A CHURCH CANNOT BE DEAD AND NOT HAVE HIS BREATH IN IT. CHURCH IS A COMMUNITY, LIVING BREATHING PEOPLE. CHURCH CULTURE BECOMES YOUR CULTURE. CHURCH LIFESTYLE BECOMES YOUR LIFESTYLE. CHURCH IS NEITHER A RESPONSIBILITY NOR A BURDEN. CHURCH IS PART OF YOUR IDENTITY.

alright, that's all! moremoremore some other time (: